Knowing myself sounds simple, but it is actually more difficult than it seems. I have read lots of books and thought a lot, but I realized I have lived according to what people say: study, go to university, get a job, and get promoted. Well, I was a strategic and realistic student, so I set my goal to become an office worker. It was because I just didn’t want to be a teacher (one of the few occupations I knew). It seemed like I wasn’t good enough to be a scholar and didn’t have enough courage to be a big stage like media field. I wish I had had more ambition at that time, but that was all I knew. I think it is no different now. I experienced only a small part of the world, so I could only set goals based on what I knew.
Going back to “Knowing Myself,” I have realized how small my world was and now want to explore freely. It is possible to understand myself better through various experiences and observations. To achieve this, I may need to step out of my comfort zone and explore something new—whether by reading books, traveling, or meeting new people. Even just exploring requires courage to step outside of my comfort zone and takes energy.
I have decided to go somewhere new, like Seong-su and Hongdae, to observe people and experience a new vibe. Also, I will try to meet new people and have the courage to ask others to introduce me to more people. Additionally, I will read different categories of books, unlike what I have always read. I will actively explore
I have struggled to find MY ITEM, and it is very difficult because I haven’t found what I like. I encountered a video of the popular comedian Yi-kyung-gyu, where he was answering how to be a good entertainer. He said, “If you feel happy when you make people laugh, then you are standing the start line” This made me question myself—what truly makes me happy?
I was happy when I presented my Consumer Journey project in my own way. I was happy while I was interviewing people in person. I was happy when I was recognized by my boss.
Most of my happiness came from my company—but when I look back on my career, not many good memories come to mind.
I was relieved because I had no choice but to select a product, and that was lip balm, even though I had been envisioning a mid-to-long-term product portfolio. I remember those times when I made choices but lacked the courage to take responsibility for them. I was frustrated that I had no choice, but at the same time, I felt relieved because of it.
I wasn’t happy when I did the same things for three months in a row. I wasn’t happy when I had to find typos. I wasn’t happy because I felt frustrated that I couldn’t decide anything
After taking a leave from work, I have hardly taken a break. I’ve been constantly reading, thinking, drafting plans, and working on various personal projects. Yet, I still feel like I have nothing to show for it. It’s as if I’m just tasting a bit of everything, like someone with ADHD, unable to focus on one thing. Is it because I still don’t fully understand myself or lack confidence in my own direction?
Frustrating and discouraging days pass by. Time feels wasted. And to top it all off, why is my English still so bad? (Thanks GPT)